Lyrics & Music by Yasunori Hayashi
The first time I thought to die was the October of the year I became a woman at 14
When I woke up in the hospital, somehow I was relieved I was alive
But you see, since I'm such an idiot, I don't really know
The importance of the soul, the meaning of life, I despise my mama and that bastard, too
I like the night, since it kindly hides the filth
In self-abandoning despair, I'm selling myself, so come on and buy me
Hurry and hide my defiled self, let the night come quickly
With my voice cracking, tears, tears, tears
To my shame, the tears just won't stop
Since this heart still hurt so badly
I searched out the razor
My last boyfriend was a stylish and cool kind of guy, but he had a bit of a screw loose
Flying into rages of jealousy like he was going mad, or going out and cheating
As unreasonable as it was, when we were apart, I still felt he loved me
Even so, the moment we conceived our child, he ran off just like Mama did
It's laughable, isn't it? I'm on my own again
It figures, I do despise love and stuff like that
What, no way, sorry, I don't have the strength anymore
Can I go on and cry now?
With my voice cracking, tears, tears, tears
I don't need tears that just fall to sting open wounds
Let everything, everything, wither away
The night beckons
In the pain flowing through me, a dim "soul" cried out and touched me
It was so small, but so awfully warm
The crucifix at my breast shone through the night
With my voice cracking, tears, tears, tears
Though it should have died away, the tears won't stop
Even though this stomach hurts now
I've found a reason to live
With my first tears of joy
The night ends now...